I want to speak to God.

I want to speak to God.

I’m not even sure I believe in such a creature.

I believe that something must exist, whatever it may be.

But, after looking at life, it cannot be all kind.

It cannot be all-knowing.

And it cannot be all-powerful.

If it claims to be then it is no God.

No God would accept and continue to let life happen.

No God would make excuses as to why we must suffer the way we do.

No God would make us do this.

No God would make you do this.

If one day, I saw a being that claimed to be God and was faced with undeniable proof and evidence, I would not follow him.

I cannot follow him after looking at the world we live in.

No matter what, No matter who it is, I cannot follow them.

The ruler of this world, the creator, is no God.

This world hates itself.

We all hate each other.

I hate myself.

God does not exist.

God cannot exist.

If I were to try and believe in him now, just for a great life when I’m dead, I’d only be laughing at my living self.

I don’t want to make a fool of my current life, in the chance of an unknown future.

And, If I were to meet someone at the gate, I would question him.

I would question why he did everything.

No answer would satisfy me, because no answer can.

No answer could explain everything.

Not just what others go through, but what I go through.

Compared to others, my life is nothing.

Compared to others, my life is everything.

I cannot believe in God, because of this.

Every life is different. Society has grown to believe in the impossible so they have a reason for their pain.

I am the same.

This post explains that I am the same.

So, I hope to one day meet this “God”, and question him for everything.

I cannot accept him.

I cannot love him.

I cannot even laugh with him.

I can only laugh at him.

For the fool, he thinks he is.

For controlling our lives and making us act the way we do.

If he smites me, then let him.

I’m glad I didn’t serve him.

Because the life I’m living, and the life others are living, is not worth believing in something.

I’m just going to accept that life is terrible.

I’m going to be honest with myself.

I’m going to understand it all.