No matter what I’m just going to hate myself

DISCLAIMER:

This post does not directly reflect my thoughts or opinions and is purely an informatic/educational post about mental health.

No matter what I’m just going to hate myself.

No matter my actions, or my thoughts, in the end, I will regret them and wish I was never born.

The actions that I take are what cause me to feel this way.

The way I act and the people around me cause me to suffer great anxiety and pain.

No matter what, I cannot convince myself that those around me are judging my every move and action.

The above is a common thought for most; myself included.

I think this way. I cannot help that I think this way. I suffer from extreme confidence issues that I do hope to overcome. I hope to enjoy life the way that I wish to enjoy it. That way includes not caring about the world and not caring about those around me.

I know myself better than anyone else. Because of this, I know what I can and cannot do. I know that I can fight and will. I know that I will enjoy what I can and make what I want of life.

Life sucks but I will do whatever it takes to spite it. I will spite the gods for thinking I will hate myself and the life they set upon me.

I will do whatever it takes to be the person I want to be and do whatever I enjoy, without regret.

I’m not a therapist, but I will try to help myself. I believe that everyone can help themselves, regardless of their situation. I hope that everyone in this world will try their best to help themselves. And if not I hope they rely on others.

I hope that we live in a world where men and women can talk their minds to others without being judged. I hope for a world where someone who hates themself can be given support and understanding of their situation.

But, I also believe that the first step to improvement is understanding one’s self. Then understanding others around them.

The only people that exist in the world are yourself. Once you have come to terms with yourself then you can start to let others in.

You always come first.

You always matter.

You are always important.