I feel like I’m running out of time

Sometimes in my mind, I feel as if I have no time.

I feel like I am chasing something and that if I do not act quickly, then I will lose it. As if within the span of a minute it could all change. 

My heart doesn’t rest because of this.

I have no idea what it is, but I feel as if I should act now. I feel as if I should take the risk and the gamble on whatever troubles my heart.

I feel a sense of regret, sitting deeply below, which will surely take over and cause a mountain of pain.

If I don’t act now, it will be too late.

I tell myself that it isn’t true, but the reality is it can. Within a minute, everything could change.

It takes a second for life to change for better, or for worse.

Perhaps it comes from experience or paranoia, but I feel as if all of life could be flipped upside down overnight. I could wake up tomorrow to the worst news of my life. I could wake up tomorrow wanting to cry.

All because of the news I hear, and the messages I receive.

I go to bed, blissful and ignorant, thinking I have time.

Yet, I wake up.

Out of time.

Full of guilt.

Full of regret.

All because I couldn’t bring myself to say it.

All because I couldn’t bring myself to tell the truth.

And now I have no way back.

I have missed my opportunity.

Except, there was no opportunity at that point.

I have failed to make that opportunity.

I had to do it. I had to make it.

As of now, things can never return to what they were before.